I find this to have a calming and grounding affect on me – especially when I’m getting ready to make an important phone call or contact with someone, or attendance at a meeting – on Max’s behalf. It reminds me of WHY I must do what I have to. I am centered “here”.
You might not know this about me, but I don’t like conflict or confrontation – but I do what I do for Max’s sake. I decided after he was born that I would always be his voice. I’d be his voice until I was able to give him his own voice.
Max will have his Dynavox Tobii set up in January and I expect that he will be using this device across all environments. I’m looking forward to be able to give him choices for music and stories as well. I am so happy that he will have this opportunity. I realize that there are many nonverbal people in the world who have complex communication needs, that don’t have this. That make me very sad.
“I WILL FIND A WAY” is my Mantra in that regard. Whatever is needed to get the job done. It was tough this past week and I have a lot of work to do this coming one.
I like stepping outside of the real and present world, and pulling out of myself that part of my being that sees beyond the mundane in this world. I like to stand to the side and let the ideas flow.
It’s after midnight. It’s time to call it a day.